i don't want you to give it all up and leave your own life
collecting dust. and i don't want you to feel sorry for me. you never gave
us a chance to be. and i don't need you to be by my side to tell me that
everything's alright. i just wanted you to tell me the truth. you know i'd
do that for you.
why are you running away?
' cause i did enough to show you that i was willing to give and
sacrifice. and i was the one who was lifting you up when you thought your
life had had enough. and when i get close you turn away. there's nothing
that i can do or say. so now i need you to tell me the truth. you know i'd
do that for you.
is it me? is it you? nothing that i can do to make you change your
mind. is it me? is it you? nothing that i can do. is it a waste of time?
so why are you running away? what is it i have to say to make
you admit you're afraid? why are you running away?
So she's gone, and I've been left here to clean up the pieces. Some days I'm doing great, I feel whole and on top of the world. Other days, it feels like I just hung up from that last phone call, my heart ripped fresh from my chest. I'm still alive though, I guess that's what counts.
My family's been pretty awesome about all of this, too, even Felix. I think him hooking up with this Thanh chick has made him a bit more sympathetic towards me. I think he finally understands how I never chose to love Mary. You can't ever really choose who you fall in love with, only what you do after it's happened.
Jane's also been amazing while I've been trying to hold myself together. When I'm around her, I feel the close to normal. She's listened to me bitch and moan about all of this and even offered some really good advice. People don't take her as seriously as they should. True, she looks young, but if you just take the time to listen to her, you can hear the wisdom of her years. But she's been a great friend...and sometimes more. We've grown very close these past couple weeks. I don't know how I'd be surviving without her.
And to you, wherever you are, I'm working on forgiving you. I'm not there yet, but I know that with time I will be.
collecting dust. and i don't want you to feel sorry for me. you never gave
us a chance to be. and i don't need you to be by my side to tell me that
everything's alright. i just wanted you to tell me the truth. you know i'd
do that for you.
why are you running away?
' cause i did enough to show you that i was willing to give and
sacrifice. and i was the one who was lifting you up when you thought your
life had had enough. and when i get close you turn away. there's nothing
that i can do or say. so now i need you to tell me the truth. you know i'd
do that for you.
is it me? is it you? nothing that i can do to make you change your
mind. is it me? is it you? nothing that i can do. is it a waste of time?
so why are you running away? what is it i have to say to make
you admit you're afraid? why are you running away?
So she's gone, and I've been left here to clean up the pieces. Some days I'm doing great, I feel whole and on top of the world. Other days, it feels like I just hung up from that last phone call, my heart ripped fresh from my chest. I'm still alive though, I guess that's what counts.
My family's been pretty awesome about all of this, too, even Felix. I think him hooking up with this Thanh chick has made him a bit more sympathetic towards me. I think he finally understands how I never chose to love Mary. You can't ever really choose who you fall in love with, only what you do after it's happened.
Jane's also been amazing while I've been trying to hold myself together. When I'm around her, I feel the close to normal. She's listened to me bitch and moan about all of this and even offered some really good advice. People don't take her as seriously as they should. True, she looks young, but if you just take the time to listen to her, you can hear the wisdom of her years. But she's been a great friend...and sometimes more. We've grown very close these past couple weeks. I don't know how I'd be surviving without her.
And to you, wherever you are, I'm working on forgiving you. I'm not there yet, but I know that with time I will be.
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